born from the provinces in Russia
studied in Lithuania and Philadelphia
I am a slow learner......
I am also fairly slow when it comes to actual painting.
Slow but impatient.
That can be a problem,
but over time I figured out how to turn this contradiction into my own way of working.
I can’t do slow and methodical accumulation painting:
I get bored with careful, planned sort of activity.
I also depend on freshness of perception,
what zen-buddists call “beginner’s mind”.
That is difficult to sustain over a long period.
After a while you are just not a beginner.
So I work fast, trying to hit the right note every time.
That is nearly impossible, so I constantly fail.
But I keep coming back to a painting.
It accumulates layers,
each one - more or lass a complete painting.
Complete but failed.
The layers are sort of like Swiss cheese -
they have holes through which in right places you can see the previous layers.
Eventually there are enough of “good holes” and also,
because of all the repeated attempts, I manage to do a good top layer.
And then I have a painting that has enough intensity in every passage to satisfy me.
Then it is done.